In the distance

He stands on the corner, watching her walk away.  This is the her that matters but he knows that if he ever hopes to have that chance again, he has to let her walk away.  Though he wants to run after her and carry her over the threshold but he knows that would smother her and cause her to run faster.  So he will stand on this corner, as she went to walk away, he told her to remember that he does love her and that he will always be here for her.  Though he tries hard, he cannot stop himself from thinking back to their first kiss, that first time she closed her eyes leaning in to him.  Waking up next to her, feeling her soft skin against his.  Time is weird, and though it took forever to have her for this short period, he is willing to wait another fifty years...that is, if she truely wants him back ever again.....this he does not know but he will not smother, he will just be there in case she needs a friend to talk to. 

I didnt have much time to do much thinking this weekend, but sometimes the thoughts hit you when your not trying to think.  What am I doing....where do I go next in life, the doctor got back to me stating that the test was inconclusive and has to be run again, so I get to go have another needle stuck into a most sensative area.  More pain but I would want to know.  Do I plan for a long future?  I know I have to spend as much time with my kids as possible in case that future is cut short.  I had a great time with them this weekend, snuggling up watching a movie with them, taking them to the circus.  I hate having no one to talk to about this, this wall of nothing is my outlet.

Fishing is coming up, I cannot wait to get out on the water.....thats all I have about that.

I hope anyone who reads this is having a good day.  If you have kids, don't waste a moment of time with them, I can't imagine ever losing mine or leaving them behind with them so young.  If you are happily married, do something special for that person, if your marriage is struggling, go above and beyond.  Dont sit and do nothing, there isn't that much time in the scheme of things, use it.